Just a Girl..

I had such an amazing day today. Beach with my best friend, followed by lunch and a pitcher of sangria, and then a BBQ with my awesome group of friends. It was much needed. It’s times like this when I realize how truly lucky I am. I couldn’t ask for a better group of friends. So much laughter and fun times. Life couldn’t get any better than this.

There are a few people in my life that I wish I had closer to me and it gets to me. Every time I receive texts from these few people I feel happy, but at the same time it just reminds me of the fact that they are not here with me.

I would like to fast forward to next week when I get to set up my new “office” apartment. Then I can work on a regular schedule and hopefully start making consistent money. I still have to tell my roommate what’s going on though.. ahh.

Also it’s my birthday next Thursday, yay! :)

To all the people suggesting I quit my new job and wishing me luck on my “decision”:

This isn’t something I’m trying to make a decision about. I decided a month ago what I wanted to do and I am more than happy with this choice. I am not quitting, I am not even considering quitting. I quit my restaurant job to do this new one. The money is pretty good and it’s allowing me to save up for vacations, for a house, etc. This is the best thing that could’ve happened to me.

Hiding a huge part of my life from almost everyone I care about is taking its toll. I’m breaking down. I just want to be myself again.

Don’t say things that you don’t mean.
My heart is already so cold because of you.
So don’t you do this to me again..

I bought a “Wreck This Journal” today and it is absolutely brilliant. It’s so freeing and creative and I can’t help but smile when reading all the ridiculous things you’re supposed to do. This is great for me because I’m normally such a perfectionist. I suggest everyone buy one of these. I completely understand the hype now!

I’m just so sad. I wish I had someone here with me.

“I’ll close my eyes, 
Then I won’t see
The love you don’t feel
When you’re holding me.”

Getting drunk and high was probably not the best idea.. I want to go to bed now.